Re: Long Rant: Hegel & Biology

diane celia hodges (dchodges who-is-at interchange.ubc.ca)
Wed, 4 Nov 1998 23:24:47 -0800

At 8:11 PM 11/4/98, Phil Graham wrote:
[Diane wrote]
>>INGRATIATING CLOSURE:
>>how nice to feel that this is a place where I can actually have a rant.
>>Maybe I'm the crazy lady who lives on the edge of town,
>>cultivates a pretty fine pot farm, writes for a living,
>> likes to sit on her front porch, with her nine mongrel dogs,
>
>That's the farm I wuz talking about before ... sounds good.

ya it's like my dream. ha ha. the more megalamaniacal aspect of
this particular dream is that I am this famous retired scholar who gets
paid big bucks to occasionally go and speak at important conferences., you
know,
I am quoted constantly,
utterly canonized. How fucked up is that? And yet I *want* that. :-)
I want to sit with my 9 mongral pooches, rescued from the pound, smoke a
big doobie, play some electric guitar, and then, like, have Harvard call
'cause they want me to write some intro to an upcoming issue. Silly isn't
it?

more confessions: MCA is publishing my first article in the upcoming issue -
and I keep wishing that it will become an "Ellsworth"*

(*an Ellsworth: a nobody academic writes one article that rocks the boat to
such an extent that years later one must make reference to the
Ellsworth-article, as it is a historical phenomenon...)

....so nothing too grand, ya know, keep it humble. Fortunatley my fantasies are
so plentiful that I suffer no real loss when some don't come true, 'cause
others do.

meaning,
Phillip, darling, I've met a woman! She's writing her diss at Washington
State University - we have spent a wekk together already,
I am going back in a few weeks,
and I am in love.

SO. I just thought I'd share, as I am most usually a monk - a scribe who
sits in her tower copiously copying her words and wondering about the world
of people. And then here she is, a real live sexy gorgeous tormented genius
brainiac chicana woman who is in love with me. Life is sweet sometimes.

An advantage for us is that I don't date or have relationships much (like,
8 years ago was my last girlfriend, please, spare me the brunt of your
reaction to this...? ok, maybe a little)

so I but I don't know how to do relationsip stuff, like wierd little
how-to-communicate-without-confrotning-what-mean stuff, or
fear-of-saying-hey-there-are-toilet-paper-balls-in-your hairs-here..."
stuff like that. (MORE THAN YOU WANTED TO KNOW I AM SURE)

well. I wanted to tell you how much I thoroughtly enjoyed our little ranting,

gotta go,

diane

"Every tool is a weapon if you hold it right." Ani Difranco
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diane celia hodges
faculty of education, centre for the study of curriculum and
instruction,
university of british columbia
vancouver, bc canada

snailmail: 3519 Hull Street
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