Re: RE: What am i missing?

From: Katherine Goff (Katherine_Goff@ceo.cudenver.edu)
Date: Sat Feb 19 2000 - 07:25:27 PST


Nate writes:
>On another note what is the story on no capitals especially the (i). It
>reminds me of Diane's poetry form or letting the flow of thought dictate
>the
>writing. I guess I am curious of its significance.

this is where the line between personal and public gets blurry.
i began as a doctoral student very much in the "received knowledge" way of
knowing.
i even published an article in a traditional academic journal on
curriculum.
but i hated it, the whole process of writing in _that_ voice.
several factors have helped me to move out of that regurgitation of
knowledge, and my reading and writing in this xmca space is one of them.
i began to write all in lower case on email, as a way to bring attention
(to myself more than anyone) that "i" was overlooked, diminished, not
really present in my writing.
(as i write this, i wonder if my resistence to binary thinking is grounded
in my convoluted, complexifying thought processes?)
so, in some twisted way,
when i write "i" it becomes a banner for my Self.
i hear echoes of bell hooks and other encouraging voices, too, when i see
those lower case letters flow out of my fingers.
it's subversive, challenging to the structures of history that i feel are
oppressive. and that encourages and emboldens.
in my head.
also, it's interesting to watch myself and see where, when, and for whom,
i succomb to the pressures of correctnes and press that shift key.

since you asked.

btw
when i cut and reply, my email gives "xmca@weber.ucsd.edu" as the writer
of the words and i have to modify each quote. i have made the effort to
capitalize the person's name when i notice that the writer her/himself
does. but this is a technical constraint that i dislike. it feels like
distancing the human people from one another.

kathie

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